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Vanya, 29 y.o.
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Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
All of these cuts and bruises that will fade away
I act as if they've made me that much wiser
Another night I sink into my lonely bed
To shut out every sound as I scream inside my head
And like a turning wheel the time keeps moving on
The pain from yesterday is now just so long gone
And as I fall into another aching sleep
The crying voice I keep on hearing echoes deep

It's every shameful fall, every mistake that I've made
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality
The only lie I see is now inside of my head
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by

I turn another page of my biography
And all the mysteries begin to fall in place
I wonder why I wasted so much precious time
I'd never find my life inside this cluttered room

I'm letting go today

They try to measure the depths of all the scars that we have
And try to prove to us that life could be so much more
But if you'd only stop and take a look around
You'd know we're all the same
And as I keep repeating all the days in my head
It's like endless movie that has no happy end
But the scene goes on without an answer and I will cry

It's every shameful fall, every mistake that I've made
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality
The only lie I see is now inside of my head
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
Lost 手探りで探してた
閉ざされた未来の答えなんて何処にも無い
走る衝動今解読不能

Found 砕けたはずの運命を
未熟な夢の中で聞こえてきたんだ
「最後まで I’ll be there for you」

立ち止まらない この針だけは
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す
真実から逃げたら今
現実にも負けたら今
何が残るの?
数えきれない この傷だけが
僕の昨日を残像として語る
運命が解けても今
存在を壊しても今
僕の道を行くよ
It’s now or never

Breathe 行き詰まって失っていた
独りもがく日々に救い求めていた
この感傷抱いて今絶対絶命

Cry 溢れ出して来たこの涙が
枯れ果てた僕の心を潤した
色褪せた過去を切り捨てて

All the words go around in my head
searching for the signs I misread black or white, wrong or right
it’s an inner war we all fight

Somewhere, buried under these lies
I can see a truth that hides beyond your eyes
in the tears you cry

This is my life
I don’t know where to begin
I’ve been wandering
looking for the voices within
This is my life
Think I’ve found a place to begin
This is my life
This is my life

差し伸べられた心だけが
僕らの今照らし出して導く
振り返らずスタートを今
恐れず踏み出したらいいんだ
切り開いて行くよ

立ち止まらない この針だけは
僕の明日を刻む音突き刺す
真実から逃げたら今
現実にも負けたら今
何が残るの?
数えきれない この傷だけが
僕の昨日を残像として語る
運命が解けても今
存在を壊しても今
僕の道を行くよ
It’s now or never

This is what they say
“Live your life today.
There will always be, there will always be a way.”
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
Lost tesaguride sagashiteta
tozasareta mirai no kotae nante doko ni mo nai
hashiru shoudou ima kaidoku funou

Found kudaketa hazu no unmei o
mijuku na yume no naka de kikoetekitanda
“saigo made I’ll be there for you”

tachidomaranai kono hari dake wa
boku no asu o kizamu oto tsukisasu
shinjitsu kara nigetara ima
genjitsu ni mo maketara ima
nani ga nokoru no?
kazoekirenai kono kizu dake ga
boku no kinou o zanzou toshite kataru
unmei ga hodokete mo ima
sonzai o kowashite mo ima
boku no michi o iku yo
It’s now or never

Breathe ikizumatte ushinatteita
hitori mo gaku hibi ni sukui motometeita
kono kanshou idaite ima zettai zetsumei

Cry afuredashite kita kono namida ga
karehateta boku no kokoro o uruoshita
iroaseta kako o kirisutete

All the words go around in my head
searching for the signs I misread black or white, wrong or right
it’s an inner war we all fight

Somewhere, buried under these lies
I can see a truth that hides beyond your eyes
in the tears you cry

This is my life
I don’t know where to begin
I’ve been wandering
looking for the voices within
This is my life
Think I’ve found a place to begin
This is my life
This is my life

sashinoberareta kokoro dake ga
bokura no ima terashidashite michibiku
furikaerazu SUTAATO o ima
osorezu fumida shitara iinda
kirihiraite iku yo

tachidomaranai kono hari dake wa
boku no asu o kizamu oto tsukisasu
shinjitsu kara nigetara ima
genjitsu ni mo maketara ima
nani ga nokoru no?
kazoekirenai kono kizu dake ga
boku no kinou o zanzou toshite kataru
unmei ga hodokete mo ima
sonzai o kowashite mo ima
boku no michi o iku yo
It’s now or never

This is what they say
“Live your life today.
There will always be, there will always be a way.”
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
darkness locks me into this room
the air I breathe has never felt so cold
and I’m losing hold of everything I had
so I’ll rock myself to sleep

her beautiful smile was always just for him
every corner of her heart was filled with her love for him
even when the time would come to say goodbye
this is what she’d say:

“there’s nothing to cry for, I want you to know that
as long as it’s you, this pain couldn’t hurt me
no reason to regret, I’ll always be waiting for you
my love, oh

it’ll be alright, I want you to know that
I’ll always believe in the truth of your words
the only thing unreal was
my place in your heart”

she could feel his words wrap around her neck
her very last breath was swallowed into silence
and everything they had together fell away
this is how their story ends

surrounded by an iron barricade
gazing at the light with eyes of lead
even after all the time gone by
this is what he’d say:

“I look at these hands that are stained with blood and
they’ll never bring back all the things that they took
so I won’t turn back, I’ll find you again someday
I know, oh

if only the tears would erase all the memories
then maybe I’d learn to fight all these fears
won’t hesitate, won’t run away
these are things I’m scared to say”

as he is standing in light that is fading
he’s feeling the trembling beat of his heart
and he remembers the sound of her very last words
again, again

“there’s nothing to cry for, I want you to know that
as long as it’s you, this pain couldn’t hurt me
no reason to regret, I’ll always be waiting for you
my love, my love

it’ll be alright, I want you to know that
I’ll always believe in the truth of your words”
with open arms, he looks to the sky
finally, I’ve found my way
my way (back) to you, my way (back) to you
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
the ice cold raindrops
falling from the sky
they try to melt away
all my broken scars
the shining after glow
gently caught my eyes
with someone's smiling face
hidden deep inside

as the time is passing by
we find the strength inside
the beautiful lies are not so hard to tell as before
and in the past I've had to taste
so many different pains
sometimes I still hear them knocking on my door

you're fading away
no way for you to see the tears in my eyes
in this sentimental glowing twilight
nobody is there
to hear me cry

please take a look inside of me
all the scars you've given me
I can't go on, not even one more step
they've taken all of me
please disappear, don't want you here
I look at you and pray like this
but tell me why I can't go on
I'm holding on to you so deep inside

now it's time for you to walk the distance
nothing is left for me but only silence
in this sentimental glowing twilight
you're falling away
alone I face the night

you will stay forever deep inside of me
just my stupid little childish fantasy
in this sentimental glowing twilight
I'm falling apart without you

can you wipe away all of my tears
can you fight away all of my fears
reaching out my hand trying to hold on
to the you that I don't want to lose
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
Saita no no hana yo
Aa douka oshiete okure
Hito wa naze kizutsukeatte
Arasou no deshou

Oh, field flower that has bloomed,
Ah, somehow, please tell me:
Why is it that people hurt each other
And fight?

Rin to saku hana yo
Soko kara nani ga mieru
Hito wa naze yurushiau koto
Dekinai no deshou

Oh, flower that blooms with the asphalt,
What can you see from there?
Why is it that people
Cannot forgive each other?

Ame ga sugite natsu wa
Ao wo utsushita
Hitotsu ni natte
Chiisaku yureta
Watashi no mae de
Nani mo iwazu ni

In the summer, the rain passed
And the blue reflected,
Small, it rippled
In front of me,
Without saying a thing.

Karete yuku tomo ni
Omae wa nani wo omou
Kotoba wo motanu sono ha de
Nanto ai wo tsutaeru

What do you think
When your friends wilt?
With those leaves that do not carry words,
How do you convey your love?

Natsu no hi wa kagette
Kaze ga nabiita
Futatsu kasanatte
Ikita akashi wo
Watashi wa utaou
Na mo naki mono no tame

The summer sun is clouded
And the wind fluttered.
I shall sing
The proof that life once existed
For those who do not have a name.
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
You can call my name
Whenever you're feeling down and blue
You don't know how to smile
I know how hard it is
I'll make you feel alright
Remember the day I sat with you in this corner

Alone in front of you
Oh! I don't know the words
Because anywhere is your home
Your sweet home
No matter where you are
This thing it's home
It's incredible and all my friends came home again
Sometimes you can not avoid the heavy snow
as long as you're alive

You might lose your luck
Whenever you're feeling down and blue
You don't know how to smile
I know how hard it is
I'll make you feel alright
Remember the day I sat with you in this corner

I touched your feeling inside
You're shifting in my eyes
Drifting away
Don't get stuck in sorrow
Get over the things from past
I'll watch your back

Alone in front of you
Oh! I don't know the words
Because anywhere is your home
Your sweet home
No matter where you are
This thing it's home
It's incredible and all my friends came home again
Sometimes you can not avoid the heavy snow
as long as you're alive
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
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Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
Long ago, inside a distant memory,
There is a voice that says
Do you believe a world of happy endings?
Even when the road seems long,
Every breath you take will lead you closer to
A special place within
Your Neverever…

Mezamete
Komaku wo tataki tsudzuketeru SAIREN
Kono sakebigoe wo oshikoroshite
Nanimo shirazu ni
Shin’on dake wo tsunagitomete
Genjitsu no TORAPPU ni ochite yuku

Koukai wa shinai yo
Tsumiageta chigireteta miraizu wo nagame
Iki wo tomete
Sabitsuita kioku no hari
Atama n naka
Guruguru
Mawaru yo

As I close my eyes
Nokosu ato mo naku kobosu oto mo naku iku ate mo naku
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
Ima mo kurikaeshiteku zanzou
Kizutsuita kako no bokura wa
Ienai mama de
Sonna karamawari kawaranai hibi wa
Mou tozashite ikun da
So now
Kore wa boku ga nozonda
My Nevereverland

Samayou
NAIFU no you ni tsukisasu kotoba ga
Kono kurushimi wo azawaratte
Nanimo dekizu ni
Furueru koe wo nomikonde
Kodoku no TORAPPU ni ochite yuku

Mayoikonda kono ashidori
Tsumazuite sonzaikan wo ushinatte
Namida de somatta
Higeki no SUTE-JI kuruoshiku
Kokoro n naka
Furafura
Odoru yo

As I take your hand
Kakenukete iku kokoro no kioku iroasete iku
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
Asu mo kurikaeshiteku zanzou
Tobidashita hizumu sekai ga
Kienai mama de
Sonna karamawari kawaranai hibi wa
Mou tozashite ikun da
So now
Kore wa boku ga nozonda
My Nevereverland

Mezamete
Yume no ato no you na komorebi ga
Mabuta no ura shimi wataru
Subete ga kanatta hazu da to omotte mo mata
Ochite iku

As I close my eyes
Nokosu ato mo naku kobosu oto mo naku iku ate mo naku
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
Ima mo kurikaeshiteku zanzou
Kizutsuita kako no bokura wa
Ienai mama de
Sonna karamawari kawaranai hibi wa
Mou tozashite ikun da
So now
Kore wa boku ga nozonda
My Nevereverland
Reply - Conversation - Nov 22, 2013
Long ago, inside a distant memory,
There is a voice that says
Do you believe a world of happy endings?
Even when the road seems long,
Every breath you take will lead you closer to
A special place within
Your Neverever…

I wake up
A siren keeps beating at my eardrums
I stifle this scream to death
Without knowing anything
I hold on to only my heartbeat
And fall into the trap of reality

I won’t regret
I gaze at the piled up, torn apart picture of the future
I hold my breath
In my head
The hands of my rusted memories
Turn
Round and round

As I close my eyes
There is no mark left behind, no noise spilling out, no destination
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
The afterimage that is repeating even now
We who have a wounded past
Are, without being healed
Already shutting away
Such uselessly revolving, unchanging days
So now
This is what I desired
My Nevereverland

I wander around
Words that pierce like knives
Laugh at my pain
Without being able to do anything
I swallow back my trembling voice
And fall into the trap of solitude

These footsteps that have gone astray
Stumble, lose their presence
And are dyed in tears
In my heart
The stage of tragedy maniacally
And unsteadily
Dances

As I take your hand
I run past you from behind, my heart’s memories fade away
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
The afterimage that will repeat tomorrow as well
The distorted world that suddenly appeared
Is, without disappearing
Already shutting away
Such uselessly revolving, unchanging days
So now
This is what I desired
My Nevereverland

I wake up
The sunlight shining through the trees like after a dream
Pierces through to the other side of my eyelids
Even though I think, “All of it should have come true”
Again, I fall

As I close my eyes
There is no mark left behind, no noise spilling out, no destination
I know that this is what I want, this is what I need
The afterimage that i
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