There are a lot of let’s say not smart people who constantly spam that they are bored. I’ve never been bored, I cannot imagine how to feel something like that, as there are millions of different activities which you can find, even though if we exclude all those films, sports, books, walks etc, we have our own mind which is that big like a galaxy, your imagination is limitless. However the post is not about that, I was thinking if “Being bored” combination was banned for myself. Today I have found another meaning of that which I can use: I’m bored and tired of myself, those endless reasonings, hypothetical conversations with people I would or wouldn’t meet, discussions and predictions, which are happening inside my head 24/7. Yes, I’m not bored in a classical way, but I’m tired of being myself as my sick mind constantly causes troubles with other people, this thing inside me is progressing and developing with years. I find new people, get used to them and then lose them, because I cannot be normal as they are. I used to tell kind of this stuff my friends or just people I know, but as I lose them, lol, I couldn’t find a better place to share as this network. There is a wise advice I’ve heard long time ago, if you have something to say, any ideas, theories, problems in your mind you need either to tell somebody or to write it down, it would free your mind for new ideas. But now I feel like this process just doubles those ideas instead of clearing the mind, like cutting weeds, at this spot will grow two or three of them, then four or six etc. So I came to the idea I want to become as those people who write here that they are just bored. Empty mind, empty head, smile on face, hello hot girls and so on. There is something wrong with me, never lucky.

P.S. I painted this сrаp in 2016

I finally started enjoying cigars after some attempts. I urgently need to find some friends from Cuba to get regular free supplies, haha :D

The bachelor party, the friend of mine is getting married. Minus one warrior in our team

It’s so strange to see my domestic cat who is:
1) not in the flat in Moscow
2) walking outside on the dacha’s yard among the grass and nature at all

Rock rock rock rock rock’n’roll high school

I call a new meta: selfie with cats 🐀🐁

At what age should I start feeling old? 🤔

Sometimes I watch some series and move a pen randomly during this process. That what happened this time

This week was the pure emotional swing. Nearly survived from getting really insane LUL

Women.

Today’s mood is Pink Floyd - One of my turns
( the scene from Pink Floyd The Wall you can watch on YouTube)

«Day after day, love turns grey
Like the skin of a dying man.
Night after night, we pretend its all right
But I have grown older and
You have grown colder and
Nothing is very much fun any more.
And I can feel one of my turns coming on.
I feel cold as a razor blade,
Tight as a tourniquet,
Dry as a funeral drum.»
…

And this:
…
«Don't look so frightened
This is just a passing phase,
One of my bad days.»

It’s impossible to smile every day. However I’m not kind of the person who is sad or mad all the time. Collecting too much **** inside isn’t a good idea at all. But sometimes you need to release all this devil’s spirit out from the soul, hoping not to kill anybody during this process. LUL

“Why are you running away?”